Jason found out this past May that he would be getting laid off from his job. He had been with the same company since he graduated from Texas A&M 18 years ago. We didn’t see it coming. The same job that allowed him to work remotely and move to the Pacific Northwest to help plant a church was now letting him go.
The company is in the midst of restructuring and made a decision to let go of all remote employees. They offered Jason an office job in San Jose and Colorado Springs but he declined. We had just relocated from Seattle less than a year before.
After the shock wore off I settled into anger and bitterness. I didn’t understand how God could let this happen – we had been following Him all this time.
And then I realized I had a classic case of PSOBS (Prodigal Son’s Older Brother Syndrome).
Sometimes you think that when you are being obedient to Christ everything is supposed to work out. Like following Jesus will equal job security and financial stability – but it isn’t so.
We struggle with PSOBS when we think God owes us something in return for our obedience.
“But he was angry and refused to go in. His father came out and entreated him, but he answered his father, “Look, these many years I have served you, and I never disobeyed your command, yet you never gave me a young goat, that I might celebrate with my friends.” Luke 15”28-29
I was basically saying (much like the prodigal son’s older brother) “God, I’ve been following you all this time! Where’s MY party?!”
But He says, “you are always with me, and all that is mine is yours.” Luke 15:31
Scripture doesn’t say what happens next. We don’t know if the older brother went into the party with his father, if he stayed outside sulking for a while or if he ran into his room and slammed the door.
I knew that I couldn’t turn away from Him. I repented of my PSOBS and am having to remind myself daily that God has a plan for us and He will never leave us or forsake us. I am resolving to stay close to Him enjoy all that is His instead of turning away in anger and bitterness.
I don’t want to miss the party.